take off my shirt and danger's all around me everything i do is wrong, wrong, wrong the song is sin so sing along i start to sing i do it wrong nowhere's been safe since you said yes my skin is chafed my skin is red when i lie awake, i live in sweat my sheets are made my bed is wet you're not to blame for all this mess i'm just afraid i'm just upset your heart will break and i'll forget the life we chase the lies we said i say "i think i'm a whore" she looks me in the eyes and says "i've seen it all before" i say "i think i'm a whore" she looks me in the eyes and says "i've seen it all before"

when i ventured to the gates i found myself erased and that's just how it goes these days there's no place to run no place to hide it's always by my side lonelier now than when i was alone sulk on the louder days, leave the quiet night to roam love's in my heart and i've never been more weighed down there's fear in the air and in the ground she keeps me in her thoughts and in her mind she keeps me in her dreams, but in the eyes i'll never be seen and i've never felt less alive but i've never felt more alive help me understand i've been doing things that i've never done before you don't believe in me, well are we fucking keeping score? cuz i don't believe in me and i don't believe in what i know but there used to be a home there used to be a place to go take me back let me feel teach me how to act i don't know what is real tonight the moon is out and it makes me feel romantic

i'll subject myself, i'll hear whatever you fuckin say this is how it goes every other fuckin day i know you disagree, i don't even shake my head i just hope you know it's why the others like me are dead and i do not accept the terms that you present so don't act surprised if i resent but you never acted like you needed my consent belligerent, pathetic, a piece of shit i'm your token gold trophy put me on the shelf show me to your friends i can keep my mouth shut most of the time it's no big deal, i swear it's fine what's supposed to be the difference between ignorance and malice you act the same fuckin way about it and if you meet me you ain't lucky put me on the shelf show me to your friends i can see it in the way you act everything has changed you are so detached i know all the ways you've been misled but i'm most afraid of what you haven't said oh we're so special oh we're so blessed to be the witness to be suppressed they pull the levers they all say go you say you don't know but i think you know i think you know, i think you know i think you know, i think you know maybe you should fucking do something about it then you son of a bitch

what's that face? it must not be real it must not be yours it must not be mine are you scared of the alibi? can i tell you what i know is mine? death steeper than anything and i have to dream trust its not what you put in me well, this ain't your fight its mine woke up the other day thought i could see it another way thought i could translate the truth it doesn't speak that it speaks in words that i recognize but can't put a finger on and can't wrap my head around and i see more i's something is very different about everything and it has been but i am here for you are you here for me or are you here for you? check check one, two check one, two i'm here for you and you... and you... and you... how many souls are in the room with us right now? i count one i count two i count three i count four i count five i count six i count seven i count eight i count nine i count ten i count eleven i count twelve

eyes that never get to meet words i never get to speak i have lived inside this dream everyone deserves a chance mine has come and mine has gone and you do not seem to care there's so much i need to say i don't think i'll ever change so i'm going my own way i hedge my bets no regrets take that offer stake my claim cleanse my name at the altar it's time to say goodbye to say goodnight no reversing and when you and i bide our time it's the worst thing names i pushed aside for me things i thought that i could be but i'm just a memory to them i know i cannot be loved there is nothing i have left everything i gave away and the candle that i hold just to keep this flame alive will go dim and then i'll die i hedge my bets no regrets take that offer stake my claim cleanse my name at the altar it's time to say goodbye to say goodnight no reversing and when you and i bide our time it's the worst thing

i've developed this theory that driving will heal all my wounds well it doesn't believe it or not travel isn't the solution to every problem you can only get away so far before whatever it is catches up to you and there's not much to see out here there's a corner store about a mile away but what cool things are happening at corner stores and if i went i wouldn't get anything so i drove home and i thought about calling you but you wouldn't like that much and besides things are getting a bit samey and now i've got a ghost heart tell me that you'll fix it i know you can make it beat all it takes is time if i travel enough i'll just wear myself out i've seemed to lose that feeling anyway so i don't need to pretend and i don't need to keep searching for an experience that'll teach me how to live i already know how to live, i've been alive it's no different but things did get different, and you wouldn't look me in the eyes no you wouldn't look me in the eyes when i opened up no, you wouldn't look me in the eyes when i said what i needed no, no you wouldn't look me in eyes when i tried to give away all i have to give away no you wouldn't look me in the eyes, and i didn't look either and i didn't bother to ask what i knew i needed to ask, because because i was afraid can't you understand i'm afraid and i and i need you to say that that you're afraid too and awaken my ghost heart with sweet nothings tell me what i need to hear let me in again my needs are stupid dumb and complex all that i need is all in my head my needs are stupid dumb and complex all that i need is all in my head my needs are stupid dumb and complex all that i need is all in my head and no one could trust what i tell them i know i'm a liar there's no hell no heaven i'm not one to say what i think when i think it might hurt or i think it might sting and i'm not alone in all this and i trust you to keep me to swim and not sink and i know you're still here so i have caught an affliction i know it's a symptom i know there's a cure this love is a constant reminder my black heart is healing i know there's a cure but i get a bit sentimental i come out my head and i get immature oh my love... oh my love... i have bounced around from town to town there's no inspiration i have made a mark that's sure to last and it's humiliation oh my body doesn't work... oh my heart doesn't work... oh my body doesn't work... oh my heart doesn't work... oh my body doesn't work! oh my heart doesn't work! oh my body doesn't work! oh my heart doesn't work! i was so jaded and so hurt i only needed someone to show me that things could be better most of them did except a few and those few have left a scar that is not likely to heal anytime soon it's only a few years later and i constantly forget that i still remember these things makes me wonder how much you can really do to fix this or how much distance all this driving is really giving me or how much catharsis writing will ever do or how much healing love can really do or how much relief sex can really give or how much my words will ever change anything but i still try we always have to try there always has to be someone or something and i'm not going to lose this i don't want to lose anything ever again blame it on my ghost heart all withered and white a new coat of paint could still make it right and i still believe

what would i do without you how would i carry on don't say anything back i think it's a trap who would i be without you how would i carry on don't say anything back i think it's a trap how could i live without you how would i carry on don't say anything back i think it's a trap how could i sleep without you how would i carry on don't say anything back i think it's a trap ??? what would i do without you how would i carry on don't say anything back i think it's a trap who would i be without you how would i carry on don't say anything back i think it's a trap

[exterior] i think i need space i think i wanna change my face and my name i think i'm done i don't think this is fun, yuh i just wanna have a conversation this is surgery (no) this is operation ugh operation ugh operation ugh operation ugh operation i just wanna have a conversation this is surgery (no) this is operation ugh operation ugh operation ugh operation ugh operation [interior] i fuckin hate it all tear down the wall oh now you wanna hear me cry for you i don't know what the hell i'm supposed to do i just wanna have a conversation this is surgery (no) this is operation ugh operation ugh operation ugh operation ugh operation i just wanna have a conversation this is surgery (no) this is operation ugh operation ugh operation ugh operation ugh operation

you dare to tell me that it's not there but i can feel it in the fuckin air no no no no no no! i was out speeding like i do when i think about where i am not a soul can stop my ass cuz i do not give a damn always taught life was like one big free ride my brain stops i got the music by my side no no no no no no! (i think that i go too far and i think that this might be all) you're supposed to stop me if i don't (and i think that i go too far and i think that this might be all) i'm afraid to say what i think because it's always gross go! no no no no no no! i drift myself off course when i do not have the time i try to write the hook but i cannot make it rhyme so i might recommend that you don't listen because i'm not reliable no no no no no no! a moving sense of anger... a foolish sense of pride... is everything i long for, but all of it in me has died a moving sense of anger... a foolish sense of pride... is everything i long for, but all of it in me has died all of my passion and purpose is gone...

studying every reflection maybe you care too much been weighing whether it’s worth it i think you’ve lost your touch hiding behind a stalwart modus it’s so easy, it’s a routine stroke you’ve been seeking salvation in your counterfeit acclaim what can i say? i’ve got a flair for the dramatic i’ve kept my dirt inside the attic i'm such a slut i’m an addict i let the dream go, and i had it! you’ve been ignoring the whispers can you ignore the screams? cuz every blasé verdict has been clipping your wings i don’t have an answer and you’ve got no reply we’re not in this together still the world needs to see you cry what can i say? i’ve got a flair for the dramatic i’ve kept my dirt inside the attic i'm such a slut i’m an addict i let the dream go, i had it in the weight of all you’ve known you never spread your wings and fly oh, never found a wayward wind the stars never align for us look over yourself and look around you’ve been a leech all along forged by a dulling ember but you’re still fanning the flames the flames the flames cuz i’ve got a flair oh how could you dare? when there’s a song in the air in the air oh, in the air well what can i say? i’ve got a flair for the dramatic i’ve kept my dirt inside the attic i'm such a slut i’m an addict i let the dream go, when i had it! i had it i had it! i've got a flair for the dramatic! i had it!

the world hates people like me try to convince me otherwise i don't think you can the tiring nature of cyclical destruction cyclical annihilation repeatable code the world hates people like me and that's the truth it's one difference between me and you a difference that's impossible to reconcile and even harder to accept and simultaneously i have everything few things start to sag the skin break the bones wither the mind open the wounds cut the meat quite like this does tell me who i am and say it again and again the world hates people like me let's say i'm not who you think what would justify it nothing let's say i am who you think and so what if i am do i cease to be do we cease to be i'm sorry i dozed off for a second it's happening more these days

i have been afraid of my own government for the very first time i never really trusted in the government but now we're all gonna die look at your hands covered in blood i wish you'd be damned but there's no hell one of these days there's gonna be retribution for this and you'll face judgement, you'll face rage at all of the things that you have built but after all of the things you wanted to destroy are destroyed will you be satisfied? you could die tomorrow and i really think the world would be a better place a better place i really think the world could see a better face i really think we all could live a better day we have all been fucking hurt we have all seen the worms in the dirt we have all seen the worst and i want to believe i want to believe that it is ending i wanna wake up to something good for once wanna look across from me and know i'm fucking seen for once i want to look at the future and not see the past i wish it all on our collective fat trans ass this is not a call to action no one should have to do anything we shouldn't have a thing to solve you made this all up you fuckers you've endangered us all you fuckers and all for what?! and all for what?! and all for what?! security is not guaranteed it must be fought for for us to succeed so fight for us so carry light for us please i wanna see it listen to songs from the past hear dreams of love and peace what the fuck happened to that shit? you very same motherfuckers will watch as we're lead in and i don't believe in sin, but if there is one satan anywhere in the world he's commanding the GOP and they're going a step beyond him and the mark of the beast is wife-beaters and cowboy hats so i pledge allegiance to pronoun pins and the progress flag we refuse to walk the path you chose for us you took your trauma out on your sons and your daughters and they're turning against you in droves now your son is your daughter and your daughter's your son and they're buying ____ play me out realing, who had the ___ first, bitch who threatened first, bitch you expect us to lie down we've done enough lying down i love all of us so dearly that it hurts every day that we fight each other i just want to see some healing words i might not be the best one here to speak but i really do believe we can be free don't wanna be corny but i think the world can learn to love us and i see hope in countless people i meet everyday somebody makes it worth it everyday i climb back up on my feet you want to destroy all of the beauty in the world and why? because you never saw it in your sad pathetic lives shitty relationships to your husbands and your wives i wanna be gentle but it takes a lot to try why not reach a hand out and learn more you might be 21 or you might be 84 but i know just like me you were a child once before and through curious eyes you tried to perceive the world and you saw innocence corrupted by deceit you saw lonely things get lonelier and sleep you saw sincerity and passion get policed it's no wonder you grew up to kiss their feet but through my bitterness and through my gritted teeth i still believe in you and just wish you would believe in me i still believe in love i still believe in joy i still believe in all of the things that you want to destroy you could die tomorrow and i really think the world might be a better place but you could also try to live a little and i really think you'll see the world's a better place ultimately the ones who are at fault for this will never face their rightful consequence but all of you who they have convinced are on the front lines we have no choice but to be angry with you because without anger what the fuck are we meant to do? our background is a life that's been so thoroughly confused but it wouldn't have been that way if it wouldn't have been for you and every place we try to make a home is pawned off to divorced dads who want to see us dead because their child didn't see things the way they did and now what somehow haunts their dreams at night is a trans lesbian can you not see that you've all done it to yourselves? when you make plans to end the world you're gonna have to see it end and all the thoughts that plague you about us are just your own game of pretend just fucking meet us maybe and maybe you could make some friends maybe you could see what i see and open up your heart find some beauty in your lives and repair the love you ripped apart it's not so bad and it's not so difficult to start i don't have anything to say realing let's just end this part

can't keep folding across the leaks flowing through many weeks going and i still dont know my name despondent world emboldened far-fetched ideas bespoken this song is fucking broken and i still dont know my name reaching heavily this doesn't mean anything your ears are my melody and you think you know my name unrealistic steadily carve out our engine readily this feels like a dream (et cetera deadly) but i do not want a name

there's an echo of the past i made it here at last when i go back i feel it there's a toxin in the air and it seeps into my lungs when i almost come undone i breathe it so this is settling it's so unsettling i made it past the goal and i have none this is volatile this is volatile this is volatile this is volatile yeah let's fuck it all up is this a bad option or what no blame to go around i'm terrified let's not give in to lust let's just cover it up no shame or feelings now let's sleep i don't know how i come across i don't know why i bear this loss i think we might ruin all the good in us i think we might ruin everything we love this is volatile this is volatile there were things that happened every time that i could not explain i find that life repeats and washes out with the rain i know what i want but don't know how to keep it here i fear everything i have i am going to lose this year

by 14 i was learning how to hate now i think about it all and it makes me feel ashamed sometimes it feels like death and pain just follow me around like everything i have is gonna burn to the ground you know i saw that shit that you said and it made me think about all of this guilt that i have held there's nothing in this life that i can really say i've earned so i'll take it all apart and i'll watch it fucking burn and all the city lights are shining on me as my soul just rips from this shitty body and everyone i love and everything i say and everyone i've hurt just all withers away i'm reborn into a saint i become among the stars everything is who i am everything is who we are if you knew what my songs were about you probably wouldn't listen to them anymore do you know what kinds of things that i think that i want i don't even fucking know what it is that i want visions of the future hit me like a fucking brick it happened before it will happen again but we'll all be dead i think it's a matter of fact that there's no going back that i am who you think and i'm living with that it's the skin that i wear but i'm taking it off i am taking it off all the city lights are shining on me as my soul just rips from this shitty body and everyone i love and everything i say and everyone i've hurt just all withers away i'm reborn into a saint i become among the stars everything is who i am everything is who we are everything is who i am everything is who we are everything is who i am everything is who we are